Journal of female Orgasm Control via Hypnosis pt 24

femsubdenial:

scsh3000:

I haven’t been keeping up with writing, but we’ve been playing regularly still.  We’ve explored all kinds of things, some that are even hard for me to believe.  I try to type them out but it sounds ludicrous, so I end up deleting.  But!  This morning was amazing.  I’m on day 3 of a week of denial.  I know it’s nothing compared to what some other people are capable of, but this is my own journey, and this is a challenge for me.  And I asked for a week.  And now I’m getting what I deserve.  😀  I tried to talk him into letting me cum just for our session, just once?  Please?  Pretty pleases?  And he doesn’t even say “No”.  He just gently reminds me that this is what I wanted and let’s just go ahead and check this off my bucket list, why don’t we? 

We tried something new today.  Normally, I get to cum a lot during our sessions, so I didn’t know what to expect today, what with the no-orgasm week and all. He brought me to the edge, then described a scale of 1-10. 1 is completely calm, no arousal. 10 is the state of orgasm. He described how I was currently at a 9.9. and what if I just skipped 10 and went to 11? What would that feel like? Because normally orgasm is the top, the peak, you get there then go back down. But what if he let me skip the need to climax and let me go higher into the pleasure and arousal? So he did. So I did. That was really amazing and intense. I was able to relax all the muscles that tense up to cum and just let the pleasure swoosh around inside me. And as he allowed me to go higher on the number scale, it spread out in my body and the waves got deeper and more intense. And I didn’t feel like I needed to cum, there wasn’t an urgency to it. I didn’t feel like there was a goal of orgasm or edging, i was just being and feeling and enjoying.  Until he let me sink back down below 10, and then the need to cum feeling hit me hard. So much intense build up, So much sweet natured, gentle denial.  I can’t even argue with him.

But he even helped with that a little. He described a storage box that would contain all my unspent arousal and desire until Monday, which is our next session and the end of the week.  So this box can take the edge off a little, by containing my need and lust.  But it has holes in it that allow some to leak out to keep me horny and needy and turned on.  See what an amazingly kind Dominant he is? I can’t wait for next week!  For a lot of reasons!

Unf. Three things I love to do with hypnosis…

1. Arousal knobs that can go way past 11
2. Orgasm denial.
3. Damming up arousal, to be released upon command, flooding your head with so much need, all at once. Knowing that the fact that you don’t feel aroused should be turning you on, but you can’t feel that either, which should be turning you on, but you can’t feel that either, around and around, knowing that the arousal is growing, that you’re digging yourself in deeper every time you notice that you don’t feel aroused, and you know that turns you on all the more yet you can’t feel it. … yet.

And your post has just mashed all three of those buttons! 🙂